OrchidLoverNew Contributor
New and alone in Melbourne, past and recently crisis caused me severe trauma, anxiety and depression.
Hi,
I am pretty new to melbourne. I am alone in the country without any family. Have not had much emotional support throught out life due to family chaos. I am an adopted child who grew up in an abusive broken family. Suffered major depression for more than 10 year thruout teenage year till young adult years. Attempted suicide many times in that period. Didnt get much useful help with psychologist and anti-depressants only made me a robot. Went off the meds and self-recovered thru the love of my then bf and his family plus I found my calling. Fast forward few years, got married (but to a sociopath), had a child, started a massively successful company but only to be cheated and robbed off everything from my then husband (now ex-hub). My 3 year old is only with me half the time, the other half she is with him in another country and it is tormenting. Gave myself a chance in a new relationship here only to find out he cheated on me. Feeling betrayed by the people i trusted the most. Recently my father got an almost fatal heart attack and is still not out of the woods, I am highly stressed over his condition, my childs wellbeing, my housing issue and my next path in life as I just feel like i am not in any head space to take control. I am depressed, suicidal and constantly having anxiety attacks. PTSD and all past traumas all coming out at once. I dont know what to do. I cannot afford out-of-pocket long term couselling here however I do have a medicare card. What can I do? I am at wits end. Walls are caving in and it is getting darker.. I dont see any light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I am crying out for help before its too late.