RoundnroundCasual Contributor
Here we go again
I was diagnosed with anxiety 5 years ago. Went on and off medication initially because I wanted to ‘tough it out’. I accepted the medication and therapy and have been off medication for 3 years. Just before Christmas my psychologist (who I have been working with from the start) went away and I was totally thrown by a huge sense of abandonment I’ve never felt before. I spiralled over Christmas and have been struggling with anxiety ever since. I also began fighting with and being horrible to my therapist every session. About 2 weeks ago I went back on medication and things have been better. The familiar weight on my mind disappeared quite quickly and I felt like I could breathe again. Unfortunately every evening it returns like clock work and here I am again with everyone else asleep and I’m awake trying to distract myself from the panic. Has anyone else experienced this? I’m so sick of coming back to anxiety when I thought at the end of last year that I had been ‘cured’ and I would never feel like this again. Sometimes I feel so hopeless and I hate myself for doing this again. I don’t really know what I’m asking. Does it ever really end?