principal

I can't remember if I said this here before or not- but the outcome of principal meeting the other day was really great he left me feeling really supported & even said he would get an outside "mentor" brought into the school at schools expense to work with my daughter on her maths to get her up to scratch! I was amazed & feeling so happy - although i did not mention a lot of points I wanted to going into meeting because of anxiety & I was scared of putting him offside.

this morning I bombarded principal after the week from hell, insomnia , feeling delirious - because my child says she feels like she doesn't have ONE solid friendship at all that she feels safe & knows is always there for her-the two girls bullying her are preventing other kids from pkaying with her & she feels they don't really like her. She feels excluded- well I got a COMPLETELY different reaction from him- he was not supportive, did not hear me& made me feel I was wasting his time-,

i tried to explain that while at times she is happy & feels she has friends - it is all dependent on how the other kids are feeling on the day wether they say yes & allow her to play or not-& she feels wounded more easily than kids that have not been thru trauma as she effectively lost her entire family except me in 2015-

when I mentioned this is a continuation from previous years -

he said- leave that in the past- I cannot leave it in the past if it is having a devestating negative impact on my child & she is carrying hurt around with her from the past- it can't be left- although clearly that is what anyone would want.

I know I looked disheveled today as he was looking at me strangely & other staff- & he left the door to his office open to the reception so any body could hear our conversation which I did not appreciate.

He said "are you picking up Indi today" I said "Yes , i always pick her up"- he said " I will come see you at pickup then"- he never came to see me as he said- yet every single other day he is walking from class to class greeting students & parents alike- u can't help but feel upset & passed off at this!

i also told him I was having a "very difficult time"- so now have paranoia he is going to call child welfare on me - although I know I am not abusingvor neglecting my child- it is a real fear from the state i am in & I wish I did not say that!

i am catastrophising & thinking he will not support us now like he said he would in getting in the mentor for Indi - because the way he acted towards me was so completely different from the other day when I was quiet & agreeable & did not bring up any of the staff abuse issues I had emailed him about. I honestly feel I destroy everything.

& I saw through his charm today- his charm is superficial @& fake for compliant parents today he was transparent - last time I wanted to buy him a bunch of flowers to thank him for his kindness - today I am stressing,& feel sick as a result of this interaction - FML