Hi Kia,
i relate!
Do you have a plan for when things go downhill quickly like this (if you don't maybe you can makevone with your supports after this crisis stabilises again).
My focus always goes back to safety first when I go downhill. I keep away from things which might be unsafe for me.
Then I alert a support person that I am spiralling dowanwards with my mental health. Are you able to let your psychs know you are going downhill? Or can you set an alarm to ring them on Monday morning? For me even just knowing they'll hear my little "help please!" brings me some calm.
For me I try to distract to get through short amounts of time, like that night, or until I see my next support person. Watching cute squirrels on Instagram or watching mindless non-triggering Netflix, or feeding my cats so they get sleepy then bringing them inside for cuddles, or reaching out at places like here, or listening to safe music (non-triggering, non-misery) are all things I can try.
Also I am prescribed a small amount of an extra calming medication at times I feel like things are getting out of control with my mental health. That sometimes even helps me get to sleep for a nap or a night if I'm lucky. I wouldn't take anything extra unless your prescribing doctor has suggested it. Some chemicals can work in unexpected not great ways, so drs' advice is useful.
Above all, be gentle on you. It is important what you're doing reaching out. You're doing Awesomely considering you're feeling so low.
If it helps to write more, write more here. We are listening. I care about what happens next for you. I hope you get the extra support you are needing. And I hope with support things pick up a lot for you and you stay safe while you wait for that.
Love from Twerp.