Nirvana03Casual Contributor
Self-Sabotage
I have been perscibed an antidepressant for quite a while now. Towards the beginning of the new medicaiton, I was very good about remembering to take it regularly. Once I started to feel better, however, I remembered less and less. I went days without taking it, then weeks, and now months. I couldn't come up with a reason for why I wasn't taking my medication even though I needed it in order to feel happy. Someone then pointed out to me that I could possibly be self-sabotaging myself subconsciously. The more and more I think about it, the more it makes sense to me that I was choosing not to take my medication even though I knew that it would help me. I just can't understand why I am sabotaging myself when I want to be better.
I'm just having a very hard time right now and am looking for some input. If anyone has any, please feel free to let me know. Thanks.