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destructiveSenior Contributor
I am having a rough time with bad thoughts slipping back in and it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I have no one to reach out to, not that I would have the guts to anyway. There is part of me that wants to be able to move on with my life but then there is this other, very strong part, that is just done. I’m tired and it’s so hard to fight.
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RazzleSenior Contributor
@destructive I’m hearing every word you’re saying. I’m at the same place you are, I feel like I’m doing battle with myself and it’s just so exhausting.
I have been seeing a councillor, he assures me that things will get better but I’m not seeing it yet.
I cant offer you advice, I don’t even know how to pull myself out of this hole, just know you are not alone, I’m really feeling for you, I feel for both of us ❤️❤️
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destructiveSenior Contributor
Thanks @Razzle
I didn’t imagine anyone would have any answers, I guess just reaching out to others albeit through a computer.
im sorry you also feel this way.
trying to distract myself with some knitting and Netflix tonight.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
what`s up @destructive 
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destructiveSenior Contributor
My heads tormenting me.
just trying to get through the evening.
need to go back to my doc and get some more sleeping pills because sometimes all that gets me through is getting off to sleep before I do anything. But then not sure having them around is good either.
got some bad news about my health this week and need to have some more testing and hospitals/doctors make me more anxious. I think it’s just overwhelm messing with my thoughts
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
I think it’s just overwhelm messing with my thoughts -- I agree @destructive, it does make it hard , have you got a coping box that might be able to help you or minfulness
I know as the doctors want to send me to a blood specialist which is I am asking why xx
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destructiveSenior Contributor
Not really a good coping box @Shaz51
Got a box with bad things in it which I’m trying to avoid.
knitting kind of is a strategy though I guess. I have a safety plan but some of the stuff I’m meant to do when I’m closest to the edge though I can’t do. Like psychologists made me sign a contract to contact her but I can’t do that at 8.30 at night knowing she has her own life and family.
Sorry you have medical stuff too. It can be anxiety provoking hey. I hope it’s not too serious
Dx
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
sending you hugs @destructive
I have Kidney disease stage 4 with one kidney , also have diabetes and my ferritin is at 1090 and the gp wants to know why my iron is sooo high
my husband has clinical depression, inherited depression , bipolar 11
Knitting sounds good @destructive, what have you made , I cant knit
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destructiveSenior Contributor
Oh no @Shaz51 I really don’t get how life works. Some people just seem to get a raw deal.
i have knitted scarves and baby jumpers and blankets. Tonight I’m working on a baby blanket. I just learnt from YouTube
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Tonight I’m working on a baby blanket. I just learnt from YouTube -- ohh that is lovely @destructive, you are soo clever
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RazzleSenior Contributor
Hi @destructive. I knit too 🙂.
I also do patchwork quilts, I can only do them during daylight though, 47yo eyes aren’t the greatest at night, even with glasses on. I knit at night, I can see that ok. It’s a distraction, I was hoping it would help with anxiety, which is very new to me, not sure what’s going to help with that, nothings working yet.
My mum taught me to knit when I was a little girl, she also taught me patchwork. It’s nice to escape into a project for a while.
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