I am a terrible person.

Hi @Eden1919, you just posted a really interesting insightful post a few minutes ago and then this! What happened?

@Former-Member Sorry I will stop sharing my feelings then never mind obviously I can't say anything right I guess that just confirms I am right I am a looser piece of shit.

It's was just a question @Eden1919, not meant as criticism. It was just such a sharp change in mood I wondered if something had happened.

@Former-Member Just forget it nothing matters anymore anyway there is no point and it wasn't a change of mood I felt just as crappy before.

My post I had written originally to you was against the guidelines so have edited...

I feel like that with some things, also battle an eating disorder too, I have often thought and said to others no one can help or save me from myself and all the things in my head. I hate myself too, there we go, led me to where my life’s at now.. in a lot of ways. When you are battling an eating disorder it’s the same stuff going over and over again and seems if you have had a lot of trauma and added trauma to it it just grows into a bigger problem and every time someone says something that you may take the wrong way because of the insecurity with it -well that doesn’t help either...

A psychologist helped a while ago at my lowest. I relapsed a couple of times after though, everyone thought I was ok but i was fighting it and still battle it with those thoughts to this day even if I look ok now...you sound like you are suffering badly. Resources are there if you want it. I don’t know a lot of you’re story but can definately hear you in most things you post @Eden1919 Sounds like inside you are screaming at all those demons within you’re mind.

@Former-Member@CheerBear@Former-Member Thank you all for replying.... I don't remember a lot of yesterday or this last week for that matter I am sorry I don't know what is wrong with me anymore I keep doing stuff weird stuff that I can't seem to stop stuff that I wouldn't normally do messygirl I do also have an eating disorder which maybe is where a lot of those thoughts are coming from I don't know maybe they are just the truth.

I am really scared I don't feel like me anymore and I have run out of options I can't be here anymore no where is safe. (I am not going to hurt myself at the moment btw)

Some thoughts might be but they are often clouded @Eden1919 or distorted especially with an eating disorder you already sound like you are punishing yourself too. There’s a voice within me that is always saying don’t hurt me! Also dealing with a lot of hate towards others and self hatred.