Almost lost my wife...

My wife almost died a couple days ago. We went to the hospital lights and siren in an ambulance with the medics doing chest compressions in the back. I am have never been more terrified in my life. She spent the nights in an excellent hospital in a private room where I spent most of the night with her. I love my wife more than anything and I now realize that I must never take my wife for granted. My advice is never to take anyone you love for granted. Fear is a valuable teacher. As a person with schizoaffective disorder being in an ambulance with your wife potentially dying in the back is so stressful it pushed me to hallucinate. I heard her spirit, I heard dead relatives voices t was just a total break with reality. I am very stable right now on my meds but the stress pushed me into psychosis. So I had to deal with my personal psychosis and my wife's illness while we were in the Emergency Department. Thank God I had an incredibly compassionate and brilliant ER Doctor. He made this survivable. I will remember his name for the rest of my life. The good news is as of right now my wife is fully recovered and I am doing extremely well mentally as well. We are both fully recovered.