CheyenneNew Contributor
Probably not the right place for this but...
I live with my mother and sister and all three of us have battle mental illness for years. I act as my mothers sole support, she has borderline personality disorder, bipolar, PTSD and anxiety, and there is very little support anywhere nearshore we live, except in the private sector which we can not afford. My dad committed suicide two years ago after a long battle with lupus, we learned after his death that he was terminal but had refused any treatment for nearly ten years. I am worried that my mum isn't getting over dads death and still talks about joining him, she claims that no one loves her and that Sh is worth more to me and my sister dead than alive. Even though I try to tell her that I love her no matter what, every time I seem to be getting through to her, my sister says something or does something that sends us right back to the start. But I find it hard because of my own mental health issues, primarily bipolar and emotional detachment, so I find myself saying things that I dont mean and struggle to get empathise with the overemotional needs and fear of abandonment of my mums bpd. I just wish that there was more support in the public sector as I feel my mum needs medical intervention but sending her to hospital only traumatises her more.
