cognitive problems due to schizo and learning to sway like the gingko flower

Went to my new psychiatrist today and mentioned my inability to read a page in a book and she looked at me and said something like 'do you want the truth?' and I of course said 'Yes'. She proceeded to tell me in great detail that schizo affected cognitive skills and that I will most likely never be the same person as I was before I got sick. I kind of knew that but was still disappointed nontheless.

I suppose it was a relief in a way as I was beginning to feel that I was dumb but apparently it is quite normal and the more episodes you get the more of the mind it effects ... she said by talking to me it was mild, my age, the fact that I dont drink or take drugs etc. means I will probably have a better outcome than someone younger but it is still disappointing to know that I have to bring my expectations down (her words) .... so what does that mean? staying on these awful drugs .... being happy with what I can do on a daily level sleeping, trying to read (I have a new set of books), gentle exercising.

The days of being wild and wooly are over. I have to be sway like the ginko flower so to speak.