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Here again just can't keep doing this

Gypsy7Senior Contributor27 Mar 2018, 7:10 pm AEDT

Here again just can't keep doing this

Well what goes up I guess in bipolar must come down. Treading water again. Not wanting to be around anybody. Days in bed. Guilt shame worthlessness. Paranoia. Fear. If people understood how hard it is to feel so low when 2 weeks shoving was motivated creative everything now I'm back to where I hate myself and life around me. Thoughts are few cept ones to get away from this pain. Hard to even write this out.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor27 Mar 2018, 7:54 pm AEDT

Re: Here again just can't keep doing this

@Gypsy7 Hi Gypsy7 don't know what to say except I am sending you my best wishes and feel for you.

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AnandarrCasual Contributor27 Mar 2018, 7:57 pm AEDT

Re: Here again just can't keep doing this

@Gypsy7 - I have been feeling the same way. It is incredibly brave of you to share how vulnerable you are feeling.

This may not be any new advice for you but I will share it anyway 🙂 My therapist has suggested that I keep a routine and stick to it even when I feel tempted to go overboard during my manic episodes.

Today i felt especially terrible but I built up the courage to call my sister and share how I was feeling. I also hugged my dad and let him see me cry. I have been pushing them away for quite some time. Perhaps there is someone you can reach out to? If not, I find that it helps to just speak your mind and know that someone is listening, and this forum is a great support tool 🙂

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