I'm new...

Hi. This is my first attempt at introducing myself. I'm new to this forum but I'm so glad that I found it! I've been reading other people's letters for a few weeks now though and I've found it really helpful.

I'm 40 and i have BPD, severe anxiety and depression. I have been supposedly "stable" for a few years now which I'm really proud of but these past few months I've been suffering from crazy mood swings again. I have attempted to
make doctors appointments but have an anxiety attack every time i try to call and this has been going on for months.
My main struggles are with leaving the house and at night time and especially on weekends when i suffer loneliness.
I have no family support and minimal friend support. ..i guess you could say that I'm alone in the world. My best friends are my beautiful little doggies whom i live with...they are my everything.

My shrink labeled my as stable because i stopped SH and stopped my suicide attempts. I have maintained twice daily medication for approx 20 years now.
So you would think in all that time that i would have learnt to manage my illness...but no. Then again it all depends which mood BPD throws at me and on which day.

I'm hoping to learn from others on this forum and am hoping to have something in common with some of you .....or hopefully make some understanding friendships.

Thanks for listening
AC :)😊

(George is my dogs name lol and yes im female)