where to start.....

i feel cheated.

my life continues in a downward spiral and i am helpless in arresting the void below.

with every step forward i make, another health issue attacks and i feel beaten and so very vulnerable and alone.

so tired, so anxious, so scared.

Hi @smartypants,

Welcome to the forum. You are not alone here. Many of us have experienced the void close up in various ways and felt powerless at times to arrest downward motion. It sounds like you are experiencing physical and mental health issues at the same time. Do you have support from health professionals for both? I had a time of great despair from both physical and mental illness. It went on for much longer than I thought I could bear but was temporary in severity. Feel free to write more about your situation as you wish. There are people here listening to you.

Hello @smartypants ... yes I think a lot comes down to energy ... whether I have to calm myself down or drag myself to get a job done.

I hope you find it ok to share your story ... we are all different ... but the shared experience of despair and other feelings can also help us feel closer.

Hi @smartypants Glad you have a gp.

I am shocked as I havent heard of people waiting for the mental health plan ... it is supposed to be available to all.

Is there anyway you can be put on a waiting list .. for the next available appointment. Even if it is in a few months ... at least you know something is going to happen.

You can post in any way (within community guidelines) as in tell your story ... have quick chats ... ask for help ... converse about things you care about... meet other forumites.

Glad to hear from you.

hi smartypants hope your feeling bit better