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Really Struggling

StrugglesContributor14 Jan 2018, 12:19 pm AEDT

Really Struggling

Hi all, I have been on Antidepressants for over 16yrs. Tried coming off them Jan/Feb 2017 with a major relapse ? 5 weeks later. Tried going back on the same one as well as different ones and finally found one that I thought worked. A trigger turned everything Bad again in November . As from last Wednesday have gone back to the first one . Not much better ( only 5 days). Feel like crying as I'm sick of feeling like this. Absolutely no interest or motivation to do " anything" Hate myself and life. Has Antidepressants ruined my life ? Feeling like I'm going to be like this forever 😤

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SleepyPandaSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 1:48 pm AEDT

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Hi @Struggles

Welcome to forum, thank you for sharing your experience.

I'm sorry to read that you are struggling at the moment.

I found the following discussions that might interest you here and here

Some members - @Queenie and @utopia may have similar experiences.

I hope you find the forum helpful.

Take Care

SleepyPanda

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utopiaSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 4:10 pm AEDT

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@Struggles. Ahhh, the problem of whether to stop AD's or not. Never an easy decision. All you can do is try. If it doesn't work - back on the meds you go.
One medication may work well for you - but if you go off meds and later try it again - that med may not work - or you may struggle with side effects. I'm finding that.
If you had diabetes or heart disease - would you try to come off the medication? I wouldn't. So why don't we treat MI with the seriousness that it deserves.
Stick witg your new meds if they are working.
Personally I find I'm better on my AD's than off them.

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StrugglesContributor14 Jan 2018, 4:28 pm AEDT

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Thank you

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Shaz51Senior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 4:45 pm AEDT

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Hello @Struggles and welcome to the forum

I'm sorry to read that you are struggling at the moment. @Struggles

My Husband who has had MI all his life ,is on anti depressions and anti anxiety meds which were helping , still having ups and downs everyday but now he is YoYoing with his meds which is getting hard

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QueenieSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 8:28 pm AEDT

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Hey there @Struggles and welcome to SANE. Since beginning medications 12 years ago, I've never gone for longer than a few weeks off them (antidepressants and antipsychotics). I found I relapsed each time and often had to change medications, as my current ones lost their efficacy.

I've found I'll likely be a lifer when it comes to medications. I've been on my current antidepressant for a few years now (at various doses). I found my life isn't ruined by antidepressants, rather antidepressants help me to repair an already fractured life.

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StrugglesContributor14 Jan 2018, 9:03 pm AEDT

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Thank you. I wish mine would hurry up and repair .

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catgirlSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 9:05 pm AEDT

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@Struggles ..welcome you will find alot of support and great advise here in this forum
i understand about the medication issue and like @Queenie will be a lifer .. i hope things settle down for you soon...i understand about hating life and self...just know that your a worthy person and you deserve to be happy
catgirl🐾

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StrugglesContributor15 Jan 2018, 4:46 pm AEDT

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Thank you . The side effects of these pills that are suppose to keep you alive bring you down further 😩

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor16 Jan 2018, 7:11 am AEDT

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Hi @Struggles,

I hope the antidepressant you've just gone back on starts to take effect soon.

I use only minimal amounts of medication. For most of the 22 years that I've been dealing with my muddles, I've been totally unmedicated. This is because I have Borderline personality disorder (BPD) and it is well accepted that medication has little if any effect on treating BPD.

At the moment I am on an antidepressant because due to life circumstances, I was struggling with very severe depression last year. If my life circumstances were to change, I would most likely go off the antidepressant. I don't have any philosophical aversion to medication, I just don't want to be taking medication that I don't need to. If I tried going off it and found that I crashed, I would happily go back on it.

What makes you feel that antidepressants might have ruined your life? Do you get bad side effects from them? I've always been super lucky in that I've never had bad side effects.

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StrugglesContributor16 Jan 2018, 2:40 pm AEDT

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Hi, Phoenix_Rising. Thank you for your response. Yes, I have side effects. I wish I was never put on medication 16 yrs ago . I feel I have made some life decisions I wouldn't have made without the stupid pills 😩

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