7 years of mental cruelty

Hi everyone, it is such a relief to have found this website, to shed light on my role as a carer. I met my husband 9 yrs ago, he struggles with alcohol and recreational drugs. Over the years, between bouts of sobriety, I noticed mental health issues. Some of the experiences I've endured have been extremely challenging to say the least. He has physical health issues that go unchecked, self-medicating and control issues. Every day is a challenge to understand his perception of reality. Two years ago in July, I had enough and was beyond burnt out dealing with his rollercoaster of thoughts. I told him, I had enough and want to legally separate. He is also disorganized, impulsive hoarder and doesn't clean up after himself. We do not have any children together. Finally after going through hell time and time again, he agrees to go seek outpatient counseling for addiction. The weaning off alcohol during counseling seemed to take forever. What I found out was that by choice and on his terms, he would only make the time one hour per month. The goal was to reduce his self medication to an acceptable level, in order to uncover the real issues. 8 months later, he finally got a referral to a mental health /addiction outpatient Dr. He has been diagnosed with addiction (on a scale of 1-10), he's an 8, anxiety, panic and depression. He is prescribed medication for the alcohol and medication for the anxiety, panic and depression. There was a problem with the medication , it wasn't working and it was discovered by me that the pharmacist was giving him a generic brand. I called the pharmacist and asked them if they knew what it was like to live in my situation and why did they think they could take liberties on alternatives other than what the Dr. specifically prescribed. Combined with that, my husband was testing the medication, by drinking to build up a tolerance while taking the medication.
There's so much I can share and I will continue another day. Thank you for being a Sane site to go to,