Border Line Personally Disorder (BPD). I would love to connect with other people who have this diagnosis. 😇

Hi @Rainbow789, welcome to the Forums. I'm glad you found us. I hope by reading through different threads here you'll feel less alone and find yourself amongst people who understand and can relate. Congratulations on taking such proactive steps and being willing to do the work to manage your condition. DBT is considered the 'gold star' treatment and so I hope that you have a positive experience.

Here are some places to visit in the Forums which may be useful: The story of someone else newly diagnosed here. A positive radio story here and a Topic Tuesday where the guest presenter has done a great deal of research about BPD here.

There are also some members who may be able to stop by and share their experiences. Perhaps @Crazy_Bug_Lady, @Raven and @Angel can shed some light on their journeys in dealing with BPD.

I'd love to hear back about your experiences with DBT. How are you feeling about contacting the therapist on Monday?

Thanks Suzanne for the welcome 😊 and thanks Cass1 for the positive feedback regarding DBT therapy. I have had one session and it was amazing. I went from suicidal to grounded. Once I finally accepted this mental health condition, the flood gates opened and I had all these flash backs from my childhood where I could see my earliest abandonment issues, anger out bursts and also some abuse issues that happened and I cried for 24 hours and then it passed. I cleaned my whole house today and looked after myself by eating well and grooming and looking after my hygiene etc... When I'm really sick I can't even brush my hair. I can't feed myself or function and the suicidal thoughts are so daunting and scary that I freeze with panic...I'm looking forward to contacting this therapist and psychiatrist on Monday. I want to start DBT as soon as possible. My GP is AMAZING and has been supporting me through this as well as my partner so I'm getting support and slowly integrating back into society and the community which is so nice. I also go to AA as I had a drinking problem but I behaved so badly at a lot of meetings that I left because of the shame. I went to my first meeting tonight and apologised to one person I was extremely rude to in the past and they were so lovely and forgiving. I have to apologise to 4 more tomorrow at the 12pm meeting (if those 4 are there) and I'm TERRIFIED about that tomorrow. I think I will get yelled at but I can't control other peoples reactions and I can only clean up my side of the street so I'm going to be brave and go there tomorrow and apologise to any of the 4 people I abused terribly in the past. I don't expect forgiveness but I just want to make amends and say sorry for my behaivour as I was out of line. Then I can relax and go to any meeting that I want to and I will behave rationally and respond and not react anymore as its ugly when I react and I get quite nasty so I end up with no friends. I don't want to live like that anymore. I'm even letting my mum in more and sharing my journey and telling her about my treatment plan and sharing about my illness with her. I've got a long way to go but just accepting deep in my heart that I have this illness has made an enormous impact on my behaviour already. Speaking to the DBT nurse once and my GP a couple of times has also helped tremendously so it can only get better from here. I can't sleep tonight as I'm worried about tomorrow's apologies I have to make to the people I got in a massive fight with. It even got physical with a man there and I was shocking. He behaved badly too, but I can only clean my side of the street. Thanks for posting guys. I am loving this forum. 😇😍🌹❤️💞😋🌷👍🌻

It's good to hear that your able to get some help.
I was diagnoised with BPD going on 2 years ago. After a miss diagnosis two year before. I am about to experience my 4th hospitalisation starting tomomorrow as my medication has stopped working.
I did DBT for 6 months last year and it did make a massive change in all my behaviours. The anger went away and hasn't come back. Once out of hospital I will begin DBT with my psychologist again. These skills are life changing.
I wish you well on your road of DBT

I just wrote a long message and it deleted itselff. Arhhh. Anyhow I am 37 years old and I also have been diagnosed with so many different mental illnesses and it has taken me till I'm 37 to get the right diagnosis . My therapist or should I say psychiatrist asked me several questions and I said yes to all of them and he was quite interested in me and my story and that made me feel validated and I trusted him and he told me that BPD is a result of trauma in childhood and I have always known that so I have finally accepted that I have BPD and I have every symptom of the criteria and after he diagnosed me I went at out in the lounge area as I was in hospital at the time and I went and worked which I think was a relief because I finally know what my issue is and I can work on it and grow. Some feelings are very painful like I get flashbacks from childhood that are quite disturbing and I end up in the foetal position having a big cry but I know and I have learnt that feelings don't harm me and they will pass so I trust what my father said and it was to much so I stand still let it hurt and then it will pass . I just tried to connect with my mother who lives in Hong Kong and she's a workaholic and I wanted to share my discovery of BPD and what I'm doing about it and also I wanted to tell her that when she workers all the time I get sad because I need a mum and she just brushed me off and said she had to go . It really hurt and I had a big cry but I'm okay. She was really defensive in a bit angry that I brought it up and I was really gentle with her and said I don't want to hurt your feelings but when you work so much I feel sad because I need my mum and that is a big change for me because I used to abuse her with words that I cannot express on this forum it was absolutely horrible and horrific so too To express my feelings and what I need and how I feel and stuff without rage is a big step for me so regardless of my mum not wanting to build a relationship with me I I really have grown and I will focus on that instead of the rejection from my mum I'm so proud of myself and I am self-monitoring until I get to my therapist and I'm doing a really good job. Thanks for posting everybody I really appreciate it and I love reading all of your posts !!!