uribCasual Contributor
Can I be lifted-up when I'm feelin' down?
G'day all,
First let me thank 'CherryBomb' for welcoming me a couple of weeks ago, first time poster hoping to get some care from this community 
I'm a 51yr old male caring for my 47yr old wife/friend/love o' life who suffers from clinical depression, high anxiety and has recently been diagnosed as having Bipolar (I don't like the labels but I suppose someone's gotta put these people in pigeonholes 
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When my wife's support team told me I was her carer it took me some time to get my head around the terminology, after all, she's my wife, I'm her husband NOT a carer! Now I have accepted that I am both a husband and a carer and at this very moment I wished that I could drop the carer bit and continue as her husband but alas that's not the case.
The last almost three years have been a real test of my determination to continue to love her as I had in the past, it hasn't been easy but thank God I'm still committed to our relationship. 2013 was our annus horribillis, four months of hospitalisation and several attempts to 'end it all', some ECT treatments and copious amounts of medication changes ... and to this day there's still NO light at the end of this proverbial tunnel, not even a damned train!
I'm tired almost to the point of exhaustion and I don't mind admitting that Friday, 10 days ago, I didn't see much point in living past that day ... I'm glad I did though but it showed me that I too needed some 'care'. So here I am, can SANE Australia dirve me INSANE or perhaps keep me SANE ... dunno, I guess I'll find out soon enoough.
