Severely disappointed vs mood fluctuations

I feel i have outgrow the category and position the system has given to me and left me in. And have nothing else in life too move onto and no other support other then system based people or others in the same situation. (Big predicament )

I am going through mood fluctuations which are influenced bye people in my life. Circumstances. Among other things. And it is basically switching from "couldn't care less" too "i have completely given up" hmm.

Have become very lethargic and unmotivated. And opt to lay down in bed and rest then act on a fleeting thought of getting on with it. And am sleeping in more. And staying up later. And just really scrimping bye with the intentions of using as little time, effort, energy and resources as possible.

I have really lost interest in life and find very little joy in anything anymore. And I'm pretty sure it comes down to the medication. The other people in my life. Absorb and soak up all of this mental energy I'm going through aand putting out there. And it is toxic. They are all wacked up on medication. Smoke cigarettes. Do drugs. Drink alcohol. Have financial problems. And its toxic to be involved with! Then i got the support worker talking down to me about how life works. When really im just a bi product of the medication they got me on.

Too hell with the system!