Trapped

Hi @peace,

I feel your pain, it is so difficult when you lose someone you love, special events make this time worse, Please tr to remember the good times you has with him, remember his happyness, remember all the good things he did in his life.

The pain will never go away, you need to cherrish the memories you have of him.

Try to take some time out focusing on his birthday until the day, try distracting yourself with some music, essential oils, Mandala's.

Please be kind to yourself, and reach out to lifeline, and if things get bad call 000

Take care, be kind to yourself.

Jacques

Hi @peace

I’m so sorry to read of your pain. What a terrible thing you have gone through. I can’t imagine how hard it would have been and how strong you must be. I’m glad you’ve found some meds that are helping you manage things better.

It’s so common that birthdays can be the hardest time. It can be a time where the progress you have made seems to be slipping away. But actually, it’s just a sharpening of the grief temporarily. Someone once told me that grief can be a bit like ocean tides – sometimes you get hit with huge waves and at other times it can be really calm. Moving through grief is partly about riding the waves and recognising that they are gradually calming over time. Your son’s birthday is a massive wave that will inevitably de-stabilise you, but there are calmer seas ahead. I hope that as time goes by it can also become a time to celebrate the happiness your son brought while he was with you.

From reading your other posts, I can see that you know yourself well and are great at recognising your triggers and looking after yourself.

Wishing you strength to get through this weekend @peace. As @Jacques says, if you need to talk to someone, please give Lifeline a call. Another option is GriefLine who specialise in bereavement counselling. You can contact them on 1300 845 745, 12 noon to 3am, 7 days/week.

I am so sorry @peace , there isnt anything like losing a child. i'm not in a place to write too much, but I am thinking of you, and will be thinking of you this weekend, in some small way if you can, maybe try to celebrate the day in some way at the same time as acknowledging the pain. They were with you and full of love and that deserves to be celebrated, as do your memories.

here with you,

LJ

I cant imagine the pain of losing your son, but thanks for sharing him with us ...

Can you ritualise .. like look at photos, listen to music and light some candles ...go to a favourite place ... give yourself complete permission to grieve ,,, whatever you feel is right for you as there is not one way to deal with loss.

@peace I'm really sorry to hear about your son. I can't imagine the grief you must feel right now. I really hope you find some kind of peace. Life is so precious.

Dear 'trapped' I am feeling for you, so much, having lived this nightmare myself. Dont ever feel bad or apologise for anything that you are feeling. You have experienced the worse possbile loss, ever and you will never forget your precious son.

I am the Volunteer Coordinator of The Compassionate Friends, Bereaved Parent and Sibling Centre and all who Volunteer or work here, are themselves either bereaved parents or siblings, but are further down the 'grief journey' and are trained and here to offer mutual support, understanding and comfort.

I truly do understand the pain in birthdays and aniversaries. My eldest son, 19, died and I find his birthdate, very difficult, as it is a reminder of what absolute joy, he brought to my life and how painful it is without him here. I still miss him, every day, but thankfully the pain is not so intense. I know that I will always miss my son, as do his siblings, but it does take time, to finally start to live again and not just be 'alive'. it does take more than the 6months that 'others' expect from us and to go back to the person we once were, which we don't.

I would be more than happy to offer you further support and information on who we are and how we can support you and your family. Please dont hesitate to call our 24/7 support line on 0398884944 or freecall on 1800 641 091 for ruarl Victoria and Tasmania.

warmest regards

Sue Brown

Bereaved mother of Abe