Hello there.
I'm just now dealing with so much of my stuff........ Guilt. Depression. All chronic, low grade stuff. Quite unsettling........ Like returning from a time away from home and seeing it with new eyes, quite dusty, a bit untidy even and in need of a coat of paint. I used to have a thing about the scarab beetle- being "under turd". Well, I'm not destined to that S#!ty life; nor a butterfly's ephemerality.
My feelings have been there all along and I'm getting along with them better each day. Getting better at stuff is quite good. Get a goal, keep a note book, reward progress, Patience will deal with anger, even self-anger. Patience will sometimes reveal new perspectives. Could be hard. Certainly worth it.