refinding the zest

Oh @outlander I hear your pain and worry, I have been in that mind space more times than I care to admit. I find that when like this I need to touch base with the world again, I need to do something that reminds me that I am more than a mum and a carer of the mentally ill. I really understand that finding time can be hard but this is crisis time and no matter what you need time out. Time to recognise yourself again.
This might sound bizarre but I often put my earphones in and play either relaxing or dance music. I get into my own world/space where I can't hear anyone and I dance/ wiggle/ sway away and let some of the pressure out.
A girlfriend once told me that taking time out may feel selfish and prove a lot to organise but it's a lot less than it would be if I was no longer here or in a facility myself.. true words.
Life is a gift, sometimes it feels like that gift is wrapped so tight you can never open it to enjoy so look at it like a challenge. The alternative is not an option.
Look after you.