why cant i beat this :(

Gp psychiatrist and psychologist
I thought my family had changed but obviously not
O thought i had a friend but she just tells me to talk to my mother.
I csnt talk to her i tried but i cant. I evrn made a goal that the little things i have wrong id tell her but i cant.
When i look at my family i just cant do it
Ive been right every single step of the way as to how they would all react.
I cant keep doing that @embers

I'm glad you've got professional support. It's so disappointing when families and friends fall short, especially when you think they've changed. I know that feeling well.
Take care.

Yeah it really sucks @embers

I know when its bad. Ive now recognised 3 of my relapse signs

1. I stop liking horses. And thats whats happening. I dont want to be there in fact its one of the last places i want to be along side being at home.


2. Ive encountered 2 triggers tonight and i hit a high but another sign ive relapsed. My depression takes over the anxiety anf it only lasts for about half an hour or it just makes my depression worse.

I dont know how i can change so damn quick. Quicker thsn a blink of an eye.

Hslf the time i dont know whether im anxious or depressed anf by the timr ive worked it out its changed again.

3. I cant be bothered to draw. I loose interest get frustrated lack motivation and judt cant do it

Hey @outlander. It's been a while since I've posted to you but I've been following along in the background. You've had some awesome support here and it seems like you are doing really well from what I've read, even though it might not feel like it and there are hiccups along the way.

Try and be gentle on yourself if you can. It wasn't long ago that you were in hospital and it can take time to recover from what you've been through/are going through.

I get scared when I look at what's happening and see that there are big warning signs. I have a relapse prevention plan printed and stuck in my desk. It has a 'warning signs' section and often I will look at it and get stuck seeing those red flags. Something I try really hard to do is move my eyes down to the next section which is 'Things I can do/strategies'. It reminds me that although there are some things I can't really control (like triggers and warning signs), there are plenty of things I can do. Do you have a plan in place for what you can do when you see these warning signs?

Hope today is ok for you. It's really tough sometimes but I hope you're able to stop and see your progress

💗

@outlander I hope today is a little easier for you 🙂