BelCasual Contributor
A Newbie and trying to get hold of things
Hi everyone,
I believe my partner has delusional disorder. He was diagnosed to have mild schizophrenia but for one year now, he has this belief that a certain group of people is trying to harm him.
He can talk and talk about his observations (cars outside that are pulling over or stopping are there because they're observing us) over and over again. Last year he was worst because I can feel he is scared. There were times we have to live with his parents just because of this. But even when we were there, the cars that he doesn't know that drove down or slows down at his parent's street - he'll jump into conclusion that they are for him. Heck, even when we were at a park and he heard 2 cars beeping.
I see the cars he sees but never in my mind I thought they were threatening. It is hard to reason with him. There are times he gets mad at me because we don't share the same opinion. I also answer him back. It gets frustrating most time. There are times I get so fed up and I just want to hide and not hear him talking about it. In realilty ,we haven't talked about anything else except his concern of these cars.
I feel so stuck--he doesn't want me to go out for a long time (but I do when I think he is better). I can't even socialize, find work or just enjoy what I like to do because he wants me to be around all the time. It is sad. His family doesn't check on him often except for his mom. His sister is his carer (as registered in centrelink) but she doesn't check on him too. I sometimes felt that they're relieved that I am here. Every time we visit his family, they just end up arguing with each other. And that annoys me off. I am someone who is non-confrontational.
I am on a temporary visa and I am ashamed of my situation. Only my bestfriend knows how hard my life here living each day hoping everything will get better. Sometimes I think I will just pack up and go but I pity him and our dogs. I know I can just leave him but who will look after him? It is so hard because I have no support - no friends, no family nearby. I just contain myself, play with our dogs (even talk to them sometimes I can't bear to listen to his rants that he keeps on repeating)
In joining this group, I hope I can get help to make my life here manageable and I can still continue to look after him.
Thank you
