Tw ED

The amount of weight hospital has been making me gain is terrifying me. I spent all may in here and gained x. They won't let me weigh myself rn but I've put on even more. <br>I've gone back to pging my meals in here. I can't cope. <br>I have to go out for lunch tomorrow and I have no excuse not to eat. <br><br>I hate this. I'm not in hospital for my bulimia but yet they've taken that off me. Don't they get it. Weightloss was one thing I can actually achieve. I was at my goal weight then shit happened and I nearly died a few times (not ED related) and now I'm back to where I was in Jan. It's too out of control. All I do now is eat too much . <br><br>I want to go home.