RosalieannContributor
Bullying boss makes me ill
I am being bullied and singled out by a manager and it's led me to feeling anxious and more depressed. I have lost sleep by having vivid nightmares about the work place and waking up crying and scratching at my wrists( a bad habit I have when I'm feeling helpless and low)
I left work Saturday in tears. Firstly when i started my shift my manager didn't even reply I my hi how are you. An employee didn't show up to a shift and I was asked if I could stay back to cover. I apologised and said I couldn't because I had valid plans to celebrate my 21st birthday (which I had already discussed after I agreed to already staying back an extra hour) I was then yelled at in front of costumers with the question not asked but asserted to me. I said I couldn't and had already made plans. She snapped at me pointed and said this is why I never ask favours, you are never willing to help out. I turned to her and said I don't understand why you are speaking to me in this way, I have helped out the best I can. She then told me to just leave. Note the hour I stayed back I had to take on the responsibility of both the cafe', front desk whilst my manager was out the back on the phone. I had no help. After being yelled at, I tried to compose myself whilst helping costumers. I then went to get my bag, burst in to tears and waited to talk to her. I asked her if she could hear me out. I explained my situation, how I always help out when I can. She raised her voice and mentioned several issues with other employees about not turning up to shifts, calling in sick ect. I told her that their faults had nothing to do with me and that I work hard. She then went on about how hard she works. It's important to note that she has cut my shifts to only once a week for only 4 hours. On several times I have tried to ask for more set shifts to which she has shrugged off and said she has to be fair though other employees are getting more shifts than me. After hearing how hard she has been working I just said I understood, it's a hard role to take on and that I didn't think she's horrible and that she is a person too. But that I'd like to be treated more fairly. I said I wanted a life outside of my job. She just went on to say how she didn't have a life. Eventually she briefly said sorry but then turned to me last minute and said but you know what it's your fault too because you assumed.
I have been told to quit, to complain but I'm just left feeling helpless. I can't quit, even though I only have one shift it gets me by. I have had no luck finding a new job and the money I get as support from the government I give to my single mother to help pay bills.
Last night I actually contemplated ending my life. That's how awful it's made me feel. I just turned 21 and I feel so trapped by a casual job that I know means nothing.
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