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My anxiety triggers my CPTSD suffering SO
And I don't know how to stop it or handle it
any more.
She's utterly burnt out by it, and I don't know what more to do / what more I can do.
I feel like I'm doing what I can to manage my symptoms - I'm taking SSRIs, I'm back in regular therapy, my therapist thinks I'm making really good progress, I'm employing mindful thinking and challenging negative thought patterns when I can, I try to take space when I can't control my symptoms, I keep a journal to help me work through stressful events without having to pick them apart with the people I damage.
But it feels like none of its working, like things just aren't getting better, like no matter what I do they won't get better. I feel like I'm never doing enough, never working hard enough. And while I know that people can't control or choose their triggers, and I do not want to be damaging to people, I feel like I'm doing all I can.
She feels like I don't care, like I don't understand how badly she's doing. She says that if I cared I'd stop hurting her. I do care, and I try so hard all the time to do the right things, to be good, to communicate appropriately. I don't always, and I don't think I even can always.
I dont know what to do, I don't even now why I'm posting this or what I expect to get in reply.
