Why?

Why?

God only knows

Why I have these thoughts that flicker

Across the perimeters of my mind

There is one voice in particular

That can be so very unkind

It started as a small child

These thoughts that he sends

And the bad behaviour

That he forces me to lend

I don’t understand it

For I had done nothing wrong

But alas I do hear him

And he can be

Oh so strong

He says he is here for my protection

But I don’t know why

And because he is here

It forces my nature to be shy

I don’t like to talk about him

As I fear no one will believe

But when I do talk to a therapist

My demons I do relieve

My moods can vary greatly

It depends on what is happening in my head

But I feel I have to be careful

For what is to be said

I know that I am not crazy

And I am quite smart

But to disguise what is going on in my mind

Is truly a piece of art

Sometimes things get so bad

And my voices are cruel to me

That all I can do

Is for help for me to plea

My best friend is an angel

For he does try and understand

Why I have these bad behaviours

And his help is oh so grand

Over the years I have had many diagnoses’

Which can be very confusing

But sometimes these evaluations

I don’t believe

And to comply with treatment

I am often refusing

Though now I am in a good space

My mind is nice and calm

I am really relieved

That I don’t have thoughts of self harm

I know that I have take responsibility

For how in this world I act

I have to take hold of my bad voices

And take control of them in fact

I do breathe deeply

And let out one big sigh

When I hear these voices

I ask the simple question

WHY?