Fear of medication

Hello @Penguincat!

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I can actually relate to this experience very much!!

I remember being utterly terrified the first time I took medication - I even needed my friend's dad on the phone for support because OCD brain was terrified about all of the potential outcomes.

And you know what?

It was all okay. In fact, it was better.

So I want to validate that how your anxiety-brain is reacting makes so much sense and it's okay to have your apprehensions and to really think about what you're taking and why.

Remember, this doesn't need to be forever, it's just to help right now.

Do you have a safe person who could be with you when you first take them? I can imagine that having someone to co-regulate with would be really helpful.

Let me know your thoughts on this. 🫶

Oh, also - I edited out the medication names you shared, just so it adheres to our community guidelines! You haven't done anything wrong at all, I am just letting you know why your post looks a little different. 🥰

I can really relate to this @Penguincat you are not alone in this.

I have just been diagnosed with OCD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder and Depression and I battle with myself every single morning over taking my medication. Somedays OCD brain wins.

My brain likes to come up with all sorts of ways my meds could cause long term harm. I am afraid of being disconnected from my emotions. I'm afraid of putting on weight. I'm afraid of the withdrawals when it's time to come off them. I'm afraid of them having an impact on me cognitively. I've even had nights where my brain has convinced me if I take my meds and my sleep meds then I won't wake up in the morning. None of it has any real logic behind it.

I tried to talk about it with my GP and I don't think I was able to convey what was happening for me properly. I tried to discuss it with a psychologist and she just said that that part of my OCD is going to be tricky to work with.

I don't know where else to go with it, other than to keep trying to take them and to be gentle on myself on the days when OCD brain wins. @AuntGlow

Hi @Penguincat ,

Thank you for your post. Welcome to the forums. It's great to have you here.

You are certainly not alone.

By reading other member's responses, I hope you get the connection and support you need at this time.

Tagging @creative_writer who may like to share their valuable insights too.

@NightFury , thank you for sharing your thoughts and perspective.

We look forward to hearing how it goes @Penguincat

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@Penguincat hey Penguincat if i could give up my meds and be totally sane i would in an instant! i hate my meds my middle son hates his meds too. i must say though i love your penguincat pic it is one of the most original ones i have seen on the forum. i love cats and penguins so is a win win from me! 😄