My Schizophrenia symptoms

hi there @Moose123 welcome to the forums!

firstly, great work on getting clean. i imagine it's been a hard journey, but i'm proud of you for pushing through and working hard to get better. i'm sorry to hear that the voices have gotten louder, i wonder if the cravings and worry around transitioning back to life after rehab has maybe impacted those voices? do you have a professional you can chat to about this?

i don't have lived experience around hearing voices, but i did want to tag some resources and threads for you to check out in the meantime:

• Hearing voices and psychosis 🗯️ - SANE Forums
• RECORDING // Mental Health Webinar 6 // Lived Expe... - SANE Forums
• Tips for managing voices

we're glad to have you here, hope some of those resources helps get you started 💙

p.s. i've slightly edited your post to remove the name of the specific drug and added a spoiler tag to help align with our 'limit detailed descriptions' guideline, which you can check out here. pls don't feel discouraged by this, often new members get their posts edited when they start off 😊

@Moose123 My dear suffering friend i know so well what you are saying. i also have been hearing voices like that and experienced such an inner battle of division. There is much i could share.

My voices were very complicated to figure out for i had suffered major trauma in my life, i hope such has not been the case in your life? (i suffer from D.I.D as well as psychosis)

Are you seeing someone about your symptoms? i hope so!

Help can be had. What really helped me overcome the power those voices always had on my life, was me understanding my inner divisions inside needed to be mended in love, and with understanding, not made worse me falling for ever more psychological genocide. As such leads to me loosing ever more good life making the wrong decisions and falling into major depression.

i'll share you an excellent song exploring this very matter.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-63ZXxMkvnY&list=RD-63ZXxMkvnY&start_radio=1

Thanks for connecting with me, I'm currently trying to manage my symptoms myself with music and reflective writing of challenging the voices and reminding myself I am safe and it's just my illness.

It's helping although I have booked in to see my psychiatrist to see if I need my medication adjusted and I will see my psychotherapist next week.

I just came on SANE Forums to see if anyone has helpful strategies I may not know of yet.

Thanks for sending me the links, I'll check them out. @rav3n

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it's good to hear that you've got the upcoming appt too!

also wanted to share a lil tip- you can tag members you want to respond to by using the @ symbol and then typing out the username and clicking on it. it'll turn blue like this @Moose123, and this means the user tagged will be notified of your response 😊

@DownMoreThanUp I appreciate your reply and sharing with me your story, I can imagine D.I.D, trauma, psychosis and voices would be significantly overwhelming. When you hear voices is it your voice or someone else. When I hear voices it's a mix of my voice sometimes and like I said before the evil and good voice fighting in a different voice. When it's my voice I do an inner critic reflection, write down what the voice says, tell myself I am safe, tell myself it's my illness and put music on and do some drawing but it doesn't always work, it's something to help me cope. Sometimes it's a soul shattering experience but I will do what you mentioned and focus also on inner love & understanding. I will pray for your healing and stability and that you will become more up than down. I have the power within in me and am chosen by God to banish my illness.

Thank you for sharing that song, I really resonate with it 100%.

I see my psychiatrist next week who will need to adjust my meds so hopefully I can keep myself stable at home and prevent another visit to rehab as I only just got out.

I have a psychotherapist who I see this Friday also.

I just posted on here to get insights from people that have similar symptoms and seeing if they can share any coping strategies that may help.

Do you have the right support to help you cope with whats happening?

Thank you for the tip on tagging user names and the positive support and links. I'll check out the links now to see if they can help me. @rav3n 🙂

@Moose123 So good we can share our stories here.

i developed 3 main alters as part of the trauma i suffered as a child hearing voices and having hallucinations of demon like beings, which have continued pestering me till today.

However in my alters i used to be very different selves. Yet my alter voices i did not experience as voices, but much more as my (pesky) brothers, who hated me, and i them, and could take over and deny rulership over my life for ages, always trying to be me.

Especially my religious alter, in this self, I used to hate what I in this (self) alter termed my weasel self, and I hated also my raging alter, calling myself overcome by wrong my sin loving self, preparing my own hell.

But prayerful mindfulness, a technique, God taught me through a psychologist, himself a violent assault survivor, who taught me the techniques to make right caring for myself in all my disunity and fight the evil voices not mine trying to hinder that process.

So yes i have come along way from where i first crashed in a heap. i know hearing voices is scaring but also intriguing and almost impossible to forget, especially when hallucinations are present at the same time. Do you get them a lot?

TW: shares some details around hallucinations and psychosis experiences

@DownMoreThanUp I really appreciate you sharing with me, it's really helping me open up about my experience with you and I don't feel so alone on my journey communicating with you.

Can I ask if you're religious?

I am proud of how far you have come and mindfulness works wonders but sometimes for me the symptoms are so overwhelming I can't cope and then I book in to see my doctor and either have my medication dosage changed or try a new medication.

I am am glad you are putting the work in to look after yourself.

@Moose123 Hi friend i hear you! Been there done all that.

And yes i do believe in God.

To learn to love God, myself with true love, and also my neighbour, love rendered the power of my evil voices powerless.

Such is the nature of true love, it changes everything and puts our reality upside down.

As long as we dare to trust Jesus, do not try and do nothing bit be as we are, and let go of bad life/hurting life along the way to be replaced with life in and with Jesus. i will love Jesus forever getting me away from those crappy voices and those horrible addictions and give me my freedom back.

i'll share you a song that i really resonate with, during the time i was still serving a religious God, and had not developed a relationship with the Living Word as i know Jesus to be inside my heart.

i hope this is useful to you.

(the truth i also found to be true serving a religious god are the words spoken before the music start.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4tHEwWLMJM&list=RDMMY4tHEwWLMJM&index=1

I was saved by God through this journey and I asked for his forgiveness.

This is why when I heard voices one was God and one was evil.

I'm very religious also and study and read the word of the Lord everyday.

I am blessed.

I notice most of my posts have been edited. I have a lot more to express but I guess this forum is restricted. I will listen the to the song now and thank you.