QueenieSenior Contributor
Leaving hospital in a few days
Well after a month of hospital food and group therapy, I am leaving hospital on Friday. I sincerely hope that there isn't a relapse anytime soon. I am still hearing violent commanding voices, but there is only so much that medication and therapy in a safe environment can do. The rest of the journey is up to me now. My doctor was concerned that I would have minimal support in the community and would like for me to have a case manager (but that is unheard of in the private system where I am now). I refuse to go into the public system simply for the purposes of a case manager, as I find the public system has treated me rather badly all in all. Nevertheless, a referral has been done for a support worker in the PHaMS program. I've had these before and they have helped, so here's hoping eh?
I am also looking at volunteering my time at the local public psychiatric unit as a peer support worker. I have the relevant qualifications and training, so I just need to do the induction at the hospital and then I can be set loose in the unit. My doctor thinks it will help me to do some positive work with people somehow.
My mood has picked up the point I rate myself a 6 out 10 (10 being absolutely ecstatic and 1 being suicidal). I am kind of proud of that achievement as I have worked really hard this admission to bring about positive change in my life, for a lasting reprieve from depression and that awful black dog which sometimes threatens to overwhelm me. I still have the voices (as I said before), but the paranoia and anxiety surrounding that has disappeared for now.
Anyway, cut a long story short, I am about as well as I get, so it's high time I went back into the world, soldiering on.
Thanks for reading this post, Q xx
