strawberry2Senior Contributor
find voice
Hello I have complex ptsd. Was diagnosed ASD although I wonder if it's mainly just symptoms of trauma.
I have survived basically on my own my whole life. I only realized such a concept of support even exists and that I am actually disabled. It was taboo to say such a thing as disabled or ask for help.
I cannot speak well because of the pain in throat and chest. This usually leads to further rejection.
Writing a post like this is difficult because of my needing to edit or delete what I say.
I just want connection and feel okay in conversation. I would like to know what my real voice or perspective is and feel okay in group setting.
I need safe environment or kind people. I am finally able to find some right group's I feel. I want so badly to attend some in person since they look perfect for me but cannot afford. I will try some online ones soon.
I hope in coming time I open up more and feel safe to speak.
Thank you.
