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Today stinks and I just want to vent

Today stinks and I just want to vent

Its my day off, the sun is shining and the birds are out.

I woke up anxious despite going to bed early and taking time to decompress from screens.

I ate breakfast. I did some washing and cleaning around home. I spent some time colouring, took a shower, went for a walk and spent some time on a puzzle at my local library.

On paper this is my ideal kind of day. and it also looks like Im doing the things they tell you to help regulate.

and I don't regret trying, but good lord it feels like there's this ... film of misery over me today and nothing can break through it.

I tried to reach out to my therapist as I have that option between sessions, but they're busy, which is something to be expected some days.

I dont smile. I feel so empty inside. I feel worse off when I try to reach out to people I know in real life because I feel like everyone is just telling me to get over it.

I recently broke off from a toxic relationship. I miss them so much. I have gone back in times previously. I wont do that again and I knew Id hurt and was ready as I could be for it, but its been two weeks now and I still havent cried infront of anyone else since it happened.

Today has been a hard day

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Well done for getting through the hard day:)

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Hi @fruitisgood

Some days just stink. Doesn't matter what you do or what you try, they just suck.

I have those days too. I try and do the right thing by keeping occupied but I get to the end of the day and feel no better.

I will say well done for pushing through and trying things. It might not feel it, but you have accomplished some things today.

I think it's completely normal to have those days. It's ok to have those hard days.

I hope tomorrow is better for you.

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Just want to say kudos for be aware of it and activley not going back to that toxic relationship. Well done!

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@fruitisgood

Some days are just harder than others. Well done for trying to do things anyway. A lot of people would have done nothing and then felt even worse. Good for you for getting out of a toxic relationship. Learn to love yourself first and then the right person will be drawn to you.

Hopefully your days will improve soon.

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it’s completely okay to feel this way—even when everything looks like it should be going well on the surface. The fact that you’re still pushing through, trying the things that help, and reaching out for support shows a lot of strength and courage. Healing after breaking free from a toxic relationship is often a slow, winding process, and it’s normal for those feelings to feel heavy and stuck sometimes.
Even though the “film of misery” feels thick today, that doesn’t take away from the progress you’ve made or your resilience. Sometimes the hardest part is just surviving the difficult days, allowing yourself to feel exactly what you feel without judgment. You’re not alone in this, and it’s okay to honor your emotions, even if they don’t come out as tears just yet.
Sending a warm, positive vibe your way—may tomorrow bring a little more light and ease. You are doing your best, and that truly matters. Hang in there.
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