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Unable to feel joy

Unable to feel joy

I've had two psychosis episodes. I've been symptom free and on medication for three years. At the moment and at regular times I've had problems with feeling numb, unable to put words to what I'm feeling and/or a real lack of being able to feel joy especially during the day and around other people. At other times like at night I can be filled with dread and anxiety. I study psychology and often wish I could be more in touch with my emotions as it hinders my connection with others. I have friends and family that are supportive but still feel empty. Just posting here to see if anyone can relate, or if there's been things that have helped others on a similar journey.

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hey @Yugi i'm sure the community will pop in to support you soon, but i just wanted to jump in and welcome you to the forums! it's great to have you here 😊

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Thanks rav3n for the warm welcome!

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no worries! @Yugi i am curious, did something happen around the time you noticed the numbness/lack of joy, etc?

what brings you joy/comfort at the moment?

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It's pretty consistent the lack of joy but I'm currently going through an issue with an assignment i did at uni which could derail me progressing further.

I try and do quick fixes watching YouTube or eating fatty foods and that tends to make things worse in the long run. Ive struggled to find anything that I know can instantly pick up my mood for a long time. Sometimes at the end of a workout on a walk I feel proud but I want to do that in moderation otherwise I get to sore and overdo it.

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That sounds difficult. I do know that the loss of enjoyment in things people used to like, is one of the most difficult symptoms of schizophrenia to treat, so depending on what psychotic disorder you have, could be part of your illness. It's called a negative symptom. Sometimes people also complain that their medication makes them numb, so having a conversation with your psychiatrist would be a good place to start. Feelings of anxiety are hard to manage, and the kind of thing that a psychologist is good for unpicking what's going on for you. There's always the effects of life difficulties, stress etc which can interfere with people's enjoyment of life.

Good on you for studying psychology, but be aware that University psychology is more about human behaviour in general - I did half a topic on clinical psychology in my undergraduate degree, and it's all very basic introductory stuff - nothing relevant to you.

I like long term psychodynamic psychotherapy, one option is to find a psychiatrist who offers it - or even contact the psychiatry department of your local public hospital and offer to be a patient for a trainee's long case - that will give you weekly free psychotherapy for a year with a trainee psychiatrist. But try and speak with the academic department of psychiatry rather than the "patient" office. An alternative is to contact the RANZCP in your state and make the same offer, and ask them to refer it to the registrar/trainee contact. Cos trainee psychiatrist's are often looking for suitable patients. Just a way to get free ongoing therapy for a year.

I wish you all the best, I'm super impressed with your motivation to do something about your situation. Wish I could be more help. All the standard lifestyle advice of course... and try on keeping on being social and doing stuff, even if it's a struggle. Simply managing the after effects of psychosis is a huge effort, it can be so disruptive, and investing in a private psychiatrist that you trust and can have these conversations with, even if you don't do psychodynamic therapy together, can be so valuable (at least it was the deal-breaker for me, and I've had a few psychotic episodes, but the last one was nearer 15 years ago, thanks to the meds I still take every day). Take heaps of care.

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Hey Auntjobiska, thanks for replying there's so much value in what you've shared. I really resonate with the numbness that comes from medication, but feel most of the time its a better alternative than instability ( I had my second psychotic episode when I was changing meds). Have you found a balance with your medication that gives you a full range of emotional experience? I'm also really resonating with the idea of psychodynamic psychotherapy but only know it vaguely - what sort of things would I expect from doing the yearly treatment? Thanks again for your help it means a lot!
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