@tyme
For a while, while I was still rather psychotic in terms of super speedy thoughts, I was madly writing everything down on post-it notes. But I've splurged on stationery and books since I remember things better if I wrote them down. I'm pretty good at not forgetting things since I've made it a habit to have homes for things, and pants with pockets or a bag. But I do occasionally (depending on stress/sleep/etc.) forget where I put things, then retrace my steps and usually find it. I swear, a whole garbage bag disappeared from my room when I was cleaning it once. I still have no idea where it went because I do not remember throwing it out. I checked ALL the bins. It remains a mystery.
I do the whole pat myself down and check if I've forgotten something. Rarely, I will forget something. I am the person who presses the lock key on the car remote several times because I either forgot if I locked it or just want to make sure. I'm usually an A for Asian student, haha! So if I've given structure, like I was in school, I thrive. Struggled in my first round of uni organising a structure for myself (and other past traumas there, but that's a different story). Now I'm getting better since I've spent the last 2 odd months creating a routine for myself. Lists work better than a daily planner with scheduled times since my days vary too much. So just got a morning and nighttime routine down with a list of things I need to get done that day. Calendars and alarms are my friends. The academic calendar also serves as a fan when I overheat from walking to class. I park a bit away because I don't want to pay for parking. Bit of a tangent, but that's how I generally manage tasks.
I mentioned it was also a spiritual episode (guess I'm a Buddist now) since overanalytical brain (during uni reflections) worked out the root cause of all misunderstandings. Thought, this feels familiar. Looked up the 8 fold path and realised I understood it. So, now better with just sitting in the uncomfortable for a moment, evaluating, planning, adapting, modifying, and moving forward with new plan. Doesn't mean I misunderstand others or get misunderstood, just that I can realise why it happened now. Trying to use the diagnosis to help me on the medical side, take meds as needed. Otherwise, I believe the risk of a diagnosis or self-diagnosis is staying stuck in that mindset and not using it as a means to identify areas of needed growth. But as I age (or triggers), I cannot always control things. So I need my medical team and an official diagnosis.
