Tougher adjusting to medication and then forgetting to take it

Hey there

Have started new meds a few weeks ago to help with sleeping and the night terrors.
Going along well, but also noticed that as soon as I didn’t have it for 1 night, things turned bad. Yelling and swearing in my sleep and terrified my wife, who had to wake me up. Saying things which I would never say when awake. Threatening unseen people from my past. But just went back to sleep quickly she said.
We spoke about it this morning and felt ashamed of what I said. Shows that my meds work, but also the pitfalls of forgetting to pack them in when travelling. I get sick of being rejected by other Drs who think I am

shopping around to get meds - when all I want is the same medications and the same level of sleep.
It’s a tough one (but also my own fault for not packing in the correct meds).