Very scared

Please know you are safe. Focus on what you know to be true like your breath. Take 3 conscious breaths in and out. Feel your chest rise and fall. If you can get some fresh air and feel the breeze on your skin. Look at the sky if you can. Touch or tap your arms and hands, feel their reality. Hang in there.

@Eden1919

Hey sweetheart... can I ask if you assign yourself to why specific religion? I only ask because I'm a Christian...

This must be really frightening and confusing @Eden1919 I'm glad that you've felt able to share here.

It sounds like your psychologist is someone who you have built some trust with as you've felt able to talk to them about what's going on for you. Are you able to focus on that trust that you've built together for now? @Tara5 also had some wondering ideas of focusing on what you know to be true, focusing on your breath and your senses. Here are a few more you can try to help you feel a bit more grounded: Finding relief through grounding techniques

I know this is a scary time, but you're safe here

Oh @Eden1919

I hope things work out for you. I've been in a pretty similar bind myself...thankfully years ago now. I hope you can get the help you need and find some peace

@Eden1919

Sending warm regards or prayers for you

I have read many of your posts over the years. Wish I could do more and that you were not enduring such intense inner conflict.

In my long experience, the themes you mention are fairly familiar. Struggles with identity, discerning good and bad, and what is the best thing to do in life.

Try and get through the next few weeks and months and stabilise yourself. Getting through with respect to the services and respecting your own needs and values seems key.

some people reach out and find support in various forms like hearing voices networks

glad you are still here

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thank you everyone for the replies i ended up in the hospital for a couple of days but the doctor was an idiot and told me to be manic more often because she liked that i was more talkative than usual she also said "everybody has mood swings" anyway useless admission and i came out no different to when i went in and now it has been a few days and i am less happy but i am even more scared than before i was just in the bathroom and then i heard someone whistling outside and i got really scared that they were coming to hurt me and now i just keep thinking any minute a bunch of demon people are going to burst through my door and hurt me and idk what to do i am really freaked out and everything looks funny and i feel really weird and idk what to do and i just everything is too much and i am not i dont know how to explain everything.

Hey @Eden1919 ,

I hope you are getting some sleep right now.

I just want to say well done on getting through the night. 🤗

@GardensHeart i barely got through the night and idk how tonight will go seeing as things are worse than last night.

ugh i was going to write more about what is going on but i just cant right now.

Aww hugs for you @Eden1919 I'm sorry to hear things are so rough! Here with you 💜