My psychiatrist is "not doctoring" in 2025

Oh dear @KirSa_EnigmA that would be my worst nightmare!!! Dis your pdoc offer an alternative pdoc for you? I can appreciate it is a very hard profession but it's also hard being a mh patient.

Sending kindest thoughts to you.

hey @KirSa_EnigmA sorry to hear you have to deal with this. i know it can be really hard finding someone you feel comfortable with and are consistent with, and then suddenly having them leave - it's normal to feel scared and worried, i would too - please take your time in processing this.

it can be easy to be sucked into that worry spiral, but there are other options still!! like finding a new pdoc and seeing if your current pdoc can offer you an alternative one as @Eve7 mentioned.

i know it's unexpected, but just know we're sitting with you hun, we're here for you 💗

@rav3n @Eve7

Thank you for your kind words.

I can't say I've really worked through this yet, but nothing terrible has happend... so there is that.

I admit... I did throw my hands in the air and say "fuck it" and did some dumb shit because I had the whole "I don't care" "What difference does it make anyway" "Nobody cares" attitude.

I just wanted to take control back again, I guess. That's what they tell me anyway.

/sigh

Not wise choices.

I just wish little things like this didn't rock me so much.

I feel like I'm just holding on to stability while everything is pulling at me to be complete chaos... like an angry scribble on a page that explodes and takes everything in the universe with it.

ABSOLUTE CHAOS AND DESTROY EVERYTHING!

the alternative - holding things together, or even building something just seems so fruitless.

The universe is without soul and we're all so insignificant.

I think I'm pretty angry, ha!

I have lost some weight though... not eating as much. Prob a good things since I'm pretty fat anyway.

just thinking out loud here. thanks for reading.

I hope today has been a bit better for you @KirSa_EnigmA ❤️

Thank you @Eve7

Actually, I had a chat with one of the Sane counselors here this afternoon... and an appointment with the GP this morning. Both were a bit emotional, but productive. I won't go into details or discuss it at length since I'm in a better place right now and I don't wanna jinx it haha!

I appreciate the check in though. Yesterday sucked.

Thank you 🙂

Well done @KirSa_EnigmA @for seeking support when needed.