AvaTurtleCasual Contributor
Bipolar and Burnout
I took on a second job that turned out to be a lot bigger than expected and has zero support. The hours are increasing in my first job now that summer is coming. There was also a lot of family stress Sept/Oct. I saw some of the warning signs but also missed a lot. Sunday night everything came to a head and everything was a mess.
I'm safe now and doing the work required to find my equilibrium but I'm also telling myself I need to be better by the end of the week.
I know this is unrealistic and I probably need to take a couple of weeks off and reset properly, but I don't want to. I could also do with some professional help but I don't want people to know I can't cope. I live in a small country town now and I don't want people knowing my business. I see the doctors and nurses in town everyday during my work day. My gp is 3hrs away, my psychologist only works 3 days a week, when not on holiday and don't have a psychiatrist because the wait list is enormous and I am generally stable.
I am tired and am worried this episode isn't over. I don't want to have to rebuild everything from the ground up again.