Hi @Liearna and welcome to the forums
Reading your post I'm wondering whether you've found you don't love this career like you thought you would, or is it the case that it's been a bigger adjustment than you expected?
Starting a job is rough, especially one with all the pressure behind it of being a role that you studied and worked hard to land. I find that in the past when I've made mistakes at work the harder I've tried to focus on not making another mistake, the more likely it is that I do.
Is there anyone around you who you could talk to about the anxiety you're feeling and the challenges of the job, like a supervisor or peer?
To briefly share my own experience with this topic: I was really excited to land my first job in my field but I found myself pretty severely burnt out about 6 months in and seriously considering going back to working hospo despite all my years studying and my mountain of HECS debt. Luckily I had a great supervisor and coworkers who I could speak to openly and who made me realise that it was the role that wasn't a good fit for me, not the industry. I wonder whether that might resonate with you at all and whether there may be other roles where you can apply your skillset that might be a better fit for you?
It is so hard to know if a path is right for us until we are on it, and there's no shame in realising that something isn't right after giving it a good go
