TN2021New Contributor
Two young kids and partner with complex Mental Health issues and physical health conditions
Hi all.
Im new here, and looking for support. I feel so stuck right now. I've been with my partner 10yrs, we have 2 young kids, one at school and one at kinder/preschool. He is an excellent father, and he loves his kids, no doubt there. But his mental health, social issues and health care needs are very complex.
He has ASD, PTSD and anxiety/depression. He has experienced alot of trauma in his life, and it was compounded 3yrs ago when he was very badly assaulted, and little was done to support him by local authorities. He sees a psychologist (we aim for fortnightly to monthly). He is trying to work on his issues. And when he is good, he is great. But when the black monster visits its hell. And I have to confess, I'm getting to the point lately of being completely physically and emotionally fried. I don't want to leave him. I know he is doing what he can. He works, and seeks help. I just feel like everywhere we turn at the moment is just another brick wall to overcome. And ive reached the point of having nothing left in my tank. He has been very physically unwell recently, which in turn of course affects his mental health. Some of the important therapeutic levels of elements in his body are significantly low and these are also affecting his mental health. But he csnt be treated for those thing until he is "over" the latest medical flare up, which could be weeks still. This makes him near impossible to love with. He is moody, anxious, very up and down and unstable. If I could I would move out with the kids for a month or so while things get sorted. But i csnt do that, as then there would be no one to look after him. He can't go to family, as his psychologist says, family only compound his issues at present.
I just dont know what to do. I'm burnt out, I need a break, I need to find my head again and do a better job of looking after my kids. But I can't when there just seems like no option. He can't work as he is unwell, he is out of leave, im trying to work as much as I can to bring in some income. And im wrecked. I'm honestly wrecked. And I don't see a solution anywhere I look. I feel like a terrible mother and a terrible partner. It's not that I don't love him and support him, I try. I'm just running on empty. I don't know where to turn what to do. I feel so stuck and alone.
Thanks for reading this. It's just so hard and I feel so lost. 😪
