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Obsessed and sick

_42_Contributor14 June 2024, 5:08 am AEST

Obsessed and sick

So it’s 5am and I can feel every part of me touching me every little lint ball on my sheets every piece of fabric grabbing to dry patches on my skin.. I’ve always had issues with obsessing over being clean but I’m at the stage of showering 3-5 times a day.. and I still don’t feel clean most the time.. I’m so sick lately that I can’t keep up with my house work which is NOT helping.. my daughter has just woken from a nightmare and wetting herself, I guess I’m glad I had no plans to sleep tonight which is a whole other issue.. I can’t even think straight to get this out but I need to do something. I’ve had three panic attacks today over things being dirty and not being able to feel comfortable it is so exhausting! I wish I was anyone else.. at minimum I’d love to know why I’m like this! It’s constantly getting worse and I can’t deal anymore. I find myself constantly frustrated and irritable because I'm constantly overwhelmed by sounds and smells and just life I CANT EVEN FUNCTION. Im so over it.

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GlistenSenior Contributor14 June 2024, 7:34 am AEST

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@_42_ Your post gave me so many emotions.

I’m going to sit here with your post for a good long while, ok?

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lavenderhazeSenior Contributor14 June 2024, 10:06 am AEST

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Hi @_42_

I'm really sorry you're going through this. It sounds incredibly overwhelming and exhausting.

Have you been able to talk to anyone about how you're feeling? Maybe a friend, family member, or therapist? Do you have any professional support in place?

I am glad you have reached out here ❤️ Sometimes, sharing what you're going through can help lighten the load a bit. And it's okay to take things one step at a time—you're doing your best, and that’s enough.

Has this happened before, or is it getting worse recently? Have you found anything that helps, even a little, with managing these feelings?

Sitting with you; hugs!

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8ppleTreeSenior Contributor14 June 2024, 8:17 pm AEST

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Hi @_42_

Hope your night is going ok?

I'm sorry to hear that things have gotten to uncomfortable and exhausting for you. Just wondering whether this is something worth mentioning to your medical team, if you have one? They may be able to help you settle things, or at least help you sleep?

You mentioned that you've had issues with feeling clean in the past, have these been similar?

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