Dark_OlenaSenior Contributor
Overloaded mind
Hi, I get so much more overwhelmed these days, 1 day ago, taking my daughter to her disability employment appointment. I have cello park app on my phone. I know longer go in with her and sit in my car out front. We had run a few other errands before this, so i had been using the cello park app, between different parks, and re start when i get to a new park.
I went to buy coffee from maccas for me and my daughter. I got panicky at maccas because i forgot to change the location for my park and thought i would get a parking fine. I couldn’t change it from a different location. I go pick up my daughter and we sit in the car and sip coffee, I must have restarted the park app so we can sit and not get booked.
Later that night just before I recover and have some needed sleep, I see that i had run the cello park app, all day until it stops at 5.30 $17. In my attempts i was trying to use the first hour free. My anxiety is from not telling my husband, because this very thing happened also in May and he was not very happy. I dont want to tell him, because it will bring up bad feelings and i will feel bad. I have terrible self esteem as it is.
I have so many questions about those so called smart parking meters. I want to cancel the app. I am sitting observing my husband when he is on his phone, it will become aware to him, because the app is set up on his account. I just dont feel like confronting the issue and putting it off.
Last night I barely got any sleep because it was running a loop in my mind. I’m feeling depressed about it and feel a shame about not bringing it up. I will most likely play unaware, when he brings it up. I run on auto pilot these days and feel despondent when it comes to appointments for my daughter, I’m attentive to where she needs to get to. But I am tired.
If I rang the city council where I am, what are the chances they will have some compassion and not want to profit on my forgetfulness.
Thanks for reading
