ElanoreCasual Contributor
Mental health don't believe me
Hi. I'm 38 living in remote NSW. Before moving out here I was mainly a private patient needing help from public system when the private system wasn't available such as a panic attacks or financial issues affording the psychiatrist fees.
Everybody in private, even if bulk billing believed my story, medicated me and supported me.
I've been dealing with disability since my psychotic breakdown since 2011 and the public system abused me back then because they believed my mother that I'm a lying, attention seeker that makes up stories because she is a sociopath and I'm her victim but she calls herself a nurse so they believe her and treated horrendously.
TW: Mistreatment/graphic
I had walked into the harbour because the federal police were trying to get me into witness protection and when they I reviewed me they asked about how many sibling I have and who were my friends. They even jabbed a needle ine and kept it there for several mi utes until I couldnt handle it then put security on me as violent.
I've been unconnected to my mother for 10 years now but 2 years ago A Massive episode while I was living in tweed led me to run away from a near end of life episode and I ended up selling my car, going cairns, mount Isa eventually ending up here and settling down.
The area psychiatrist when I got to town claimed he read 16 discharge summaries, not going back to my original section (all of panic attacks since my section) because my psychosis would lead me to emergency via police, not self presentation and said I had never been psychotic in my life. This psychiatrist stated I had personality problems and alcoholic and told professional if they even wanted to help me use distraction and send me on my way.
I've present well over 40 times in 2 years but once a gp gave me a prn at home, presentation were rare and usually medical. Even then I feel the doctors er I see write me off.
I've had sudden acute changes in my condition I believe due to acute stress and PTSD and my psychologist is concerned about my safety and contacted my GP for a bed for observation. The GP who I really don't know said I'd have to be flown out but even though I've seen her 3 times and she said she really didn't know me but then said I wasn't myself and present and she will work with mental health to get a bed.
Got there and the nurses triage was hi, your medically cleared and gp.wrote a note for mental health then without asking me what the problem was or reading doctors note wrote I was sad and depressed when I'm blacking out, dissociating, not being able to remember the night before even if I wasn't drinking and even being disturbed in my sleep with hallucinations. This not at all normal, even drunk.
I have been down the not believed, attention drug seeking test before and it's extremely traumatizing to me. I told nurse I'm going, your all lying to me and setting me up and if anyone cares call the Ambos, even then he talked over me and didn't listen to what I was saying. It's been over 3 hours and nobody has shown up or rung.
Private doctors get my records and treat me. Public every time call me a drunk and attention seeker and make accusations about me and I've got a witness.mental health once said she's just a drunk check her.for detox symptoms and send her on way. for years public health doing this but now I'm remote and this only option and what do I do?
TW: Suicide
Am I confused about their service or is this not right?
Thanks all
