James8Contributor
What do I do anymore
Hey, well this is my first post and I dont even know if im doing it right, so let me know if this is the right place or if I shouldn't talk about this stuff here, but here I go, I'm 18 and it feels like the world's againts me the amount of things I'm going through daily both mentally and physically is just hurting, I feel alone, even when im around loved ones, I feel unwanted even with people wanting me, I had to push someone away in the past couple of weeks because how much toll they've been putting on my mental health, for a very long time I thought she was the one, but it ended all like that in a day, a friendship that lasted three years, now I wont get into the details cause I dont even know if im allowed to on here or what the rules are, but she ended up hurting me alot, more then any pain I felt before both physically and mentally, pain I didn't even think was possible, and I still blame myself, for not holding on tighter or trying harder to make her wanna stay with me or maybe I couldve changed to a man she wanted, but in the end she left and the worst part of it all I didn't realise how badly I wanted her till she left.
This is just a little rant but to anyone reading this thank you for spending your time, please let me know if I can share more or not, but it feels better scrapping the top of my problems away
