GalaxyOwlSenior Contributor
Sleepless because of body image stuff
TW: disordered eating, eating disorders/ED, body image issues/body dysmorphia
I've had on off issues with my eating because of poor body image. It's never usually so bad I can't stop thinking about it or get to sleep.
I'm supposed to be working in 6 hours and I can't sleep.I decided to weigh myself a few hours ago because I haven't been eating a lot the last few days, because I've been broke and running out of food, and usually when that happens I lose weight. Which, I did.
Usually when this happens it positively enforces the restricted eating and i end up just .... seeing how far I can run with it.
This can also lead to being overly concerned with the quality of my food and eating unprocessed food a lot more and being really uncomfy eating meat and other behaviours that concern my housemates and make them think I'm heading into a hypomanic episode. (I have bipolar)
I don't think I'm hypomanic at the moment, if anything I've been feeling pretty low.
I don't have any coping mechanisms for these feelings, aside from reminding myself that weight doesn't equal health and that my brain is tricking me about my body and its needs.
I'm not really sure where to go from here.