Hit a real low point

It sounds like you've been going through a lot lately, both with the NDIS application and confronting some harsh realities about your situation. It's understandable that hearing an honest assessment can be overwhelming. Try to remember that it is important for your GP to document where you are at on your worst day in order to receive the supports you deserve. Unfortunately, the need for such documentation is more a reflection of the system's shortcomings than of your own capabilities.

That being said, I'm so glad you have someone like your GP who's willing to invest time and effort in advocating for you, because you deserve it.

As you prepare to discuss your future with your GP, remember that healing isn't always a linear process. Seeking this support is a positive step toward achieving your goals, including those related to work. It's also important to recognise the significance of the work you're doing now, regardless of its contribution to capitalism. Every step you take toward bettering yourself and seeking the support you need is important and meaningful.

If you can, try to be gentle with yourself throughout this process. How would you talk to a friend going through your situation?

Hey @ClockFace

Thank you immensely for sharing your experience with us.

Firstly I want to say congratulations on the big step of getting to your GP, and starting the NDIS process. It can be daunting, and diagnoses can be very stigmatizing and confronting. It's a brave thing to undertake, and I sincerely hope you're proud of yourself. It sounds as though your GP is very supportive, and really empathises, validates, and listens to your situation?

With that said, it's sad that you don't feel supported by your family. I am disheartened to hear that you feel your sister is not honest with her opinions towards you, and also that you feel there is a lack of empathy and understanding generally. That sounds heartbreaking and quite disrespectful. I am curious if you have anyone else close you feel you can trust and talk to?

If your GP is of the opinion you should return to work, how would that make you feel? Do you have short term goals or long term aspirations?

Much love and kindness, and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing ❤️

@Xibon

The only goal I had was to get back to work. I kinda felt like that was ripped away from me yesterday but I feel a bit more like its still my goal, its just going to be a longer road than I anticipitated. Im still pretty well invested in getting back to work. Its just the inbetween time, what I do with that. If I dont have a purpose, something Im working toward, a reason for being I feel pretty confident that I will drive head first into depression again.

@ClockFace

I'm so sorry, that is so frustrating. Occupations can be so fulfilling and really give a sense of purpose. It's great to hear you still have goals in mind, and are able to acknowledge that things may take a little longer (as much as that though hurts). Be kind to yourself over this period; recovery is nonlinear, but the biggest kindness we can give ourselves is patience.

I think I know where you're coming from, it can be so demoralizing to feel stuck in limbo or as though we're not working towards something. Sometimes I place a sense of self worth on my occupations, and feel the need to be studying, working, or volunteering to feel more fulfilled. I wonder if you feel this also?

Recovery is its own journey, and you are still working towards something through this time no matter what. Please keep me updated on your thoughts and feelings ❤️