Poems about sad and lonely

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

Tightness in my chest
I cant breath.
The only time I can escape
is when I fall asleep.

Constant nausea
constant fear.
How did this happen
knowing I'm safe here?

It's a constant worry
another will strike.
I worry about it all the time
it makes me lose my appetite.

My sight darkens
my life flashes.
My worries control my thoughts
my heart crashes and burns to ashes.

You have no idea what its like
to live one day in my shoes.
Maybe if you did
you wouldn't judge me as you do.

Depression, my friend and yet you are my foe.
You hold my hand through my tortuous times
And sail with me, through the wings of birds
And the smell of leaves.
You have known me for a long time and I understand your ways
Through the blackness you walk by my side, holding my hand
And sleep with me on the coldest and blackest of nights.

Depression, I know you will never leave my side
But many times I wish you would let go of my hand, release me
And let me be. To allow me to achieve my own personal goals.
To allow me to let go of the past and to enable me to footprint the steps to
move forward with enthusiasm and joy.
We have known each other through a long time and you have
Been there by my side, but I can no longer fill my heart with happiness and
Plans for happier moments to return.

Depression, you are the deepest part of my soul, of my whole being
And I don't know how to release you from enveloping the darkness
And taking away the stars from my heart and my spirit.
I understand you, and know you will never leave me but please,
Release me from this infinite tunnel and spiral of utter sadness
And grief as you have taken from me my spirit and my joy
And have left me lifeless and a walking corpse,
Breathless and lifeless with no joy and no future.

Depression, I know you will never let me go
You will haunt me and wrap me tightly within your grasp.
And when I leave this earth, you will depart with me
And I hope then, you will finally release your hold
And allow me to be free, to fly with the birds
And glide with the winds of time.

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