Tired of being told to let things go

I want to know why everyone who's not getting actively screwed over by someone over and over and over again can tell me "just let it go" while they watch me get screwed over and over and over again by the same person. I've told him a thousand time to stop wasting my food and mixing it and turning it off. The worthless chromosome donor I have now disowned keeps screwing with my food and I've told him over a dozen times to stop screwing with my food. I'm expected to just swallow whatever I'm given. Noone has to respect me in any way but I have to act a certain way because ppl find me distasteful. I'm not here for ppl to take from me. I'm nit here for ppl to do whatever they want to me. I'm sick of being told "let it go" by ppl who aren't paying for my food, nor cooking it. Everyone seems to think it'd reasonable to do whatever they like to me and I'm expected and told to just pretend it's not happening after I've told the same worthless piece of shit to stop doing it. If the shoe were on the other foot I'd be told how much of a filthy thieving worthless piece of shit I am but everyone gets a free pass to do whatever they want.

What is the frigging point when ppl actively ignore me and steal my shit from under my nose? Why am I told I'm being unreasonable when I'm not the one stealing shit? I'm sick of the double standard and I'm sick of being told I'm wrong for being mad at the same shit that keeps on happening. He is actively telling me to go and fuck myself.

I used to let shit go and it resulted in everyone thinking they can do what they want and say what they want to me. Ppl need to be held accountable le for their arsehole actions. If I fart at the wrong pitch i get told how badly it's affecting everyone else. I'm sick of everyone telling me how bad it is for them to have to deal with me when I'm like this. They get to hang up the phone or delete the messages or close the office and go home and go on holiday and have days off. I don't get any of those things but noone cares because it's me, not them. And that's all that matters. No matter how I feel I'm wrong and everyone else knows what's best. Frigging bs.

I've been wanting to be dead for over 15 years and I can't even be honest about that because everyone weaponises the police against me. I'm sick of ppl "showing me who's boss". Ppl are frigging garbage. I'm venting and I feel like I should be allowed to do that somewhere since everyone else seems to be allowed to. I'm sick if being alive I'm sick of the bipolar. I'm sick if the diabetes. I'm sick of doctors and specialists talking out if their arse. I don't go to those appointments now. I'm literally just waiting to die. I'm not going to hurt myself so cut that out before u even start. I've got no plans. I am waiting for something to take me so I don't have to be on this shitty planet anymore.