Overwhelmed and frustrated

Hi @Former-Member , I am a moderator here.

Thank you for sharing. I can hear a lot of disappointment towards people in your words. You mentioned no on understand what you are going through. To be honest, no one every will, because no one went through the exact same things as you. Instead, what we try to do is, we try to understand as much as we can from what you share. Even though we don't live your life, but we try our best to listen to your story and how you feel, as well as provide any support you need.

You mentioned you don't enjoy anything enough to keep you distracted all the time, that's ok. From my experience, some day I feel like doing this, and I can spend the whole day in that, but other days I don't, so I do something else. The idea is to keep yourself busy, it doesn't have to be the one thing if I am making sense.

There are a lot of members in this forum who are struggling with their mental health along with other issues, perhaps you can have a look around, read about their stories, maybe you will find something that resonate with you.

Hi @Former-Member

I'm a moderator here on the forums. I noticed you have said not to reply unless you have real help for bipolar. From my experience here people who offer support on the forums, always do it out of a place of care and compassion. They may not understand exactly what you are going through (no one does) but will offer ideas that they have found helpful. So it may be limiting to ask for replies only if they have 'real help'. Let me know what you think. I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you over the years. I'm not quite sure what you mean by psychology is just semantics? Psychology has helped a lot of people understand their mental health challenges. It may not be for everyone of course, as you have expressed.

Warm regards
Hanami

I've been to ten psychologists and none of them have done anything. Third party therapy is ridiculous and I can't take it seriously. Cognitive behaviour therapy is pavlovian conditioning and I resent being treated like an animal. When I say that to a psychologist they openly insult me whole smirking at me with that same facial expression that is supposed to be kind and reassuring. They try to manipulate me and I won't allow it.

psychology is semantics. It's calling something something else. How many words can u think of that mean "big"? I've been manipulated for my entire life and I won't put up with it. I'm sick of all of it. I want help that doesn't involve me pretending something is not what it is. Psychologists are snake oil salesmen. When I tried to speak to a psychiatrist on two separate occasions a different psychologist called me and started with the "help me help you" and "we just don't want to waste our time here". Saying "we" does not.make me feel like they're on my team. It's another form of manipulation.

I appreciate that this has been your experience @Former-Member , but please be mindful that many people can have great success with therapies such as CBT. When writing opinions such as this please preface with 'in my opinion', or 'in my experience'. If not, a moderator may remove the post as it could deter others from seeking help.

Have you tried any alternative therapies? Ore are you against all types of therapy? Is there any type of treatment or support that you think might be something that could work for you?

Hanami

Everything I'm talking about is in my experience and is only my opinion.

I don't know what exists as far as therapy goes. Im only against manipulative methods. That's all I've ever had suggested to me so that's all I can comment on. However I'm not able to do one thing every day like journalling or whatever. I get sick of it. As a result of being forced to do things when I want a break from them throughout childhood I just drop it and walk away regardless of what it is. When I into something, whether it's drawing or whatever I do it for awhile and I get bored with it and then I just get agitated by it.

I'm the way I am because it's how I survive. I'm not trying to be difficult. I'm resistant to alot of things because ive been forced to do things that ppl say will help me in some way but all it does is make me feel worse. I don't want to be around anyone because it exhausts me. In my experience ppl only really interact with me when they want something from me. I can't trust anyone.