I can feel the change

I can feel my mood going down again. I know that we are bottom of son and his wife's list, as we should be, but we are really at the bottom. There are so many others in their life that will come before us. We only get called on when they want something. It is taking everything in me not to say something. We sent a message to ask if we can come by and catch up. Havent seen them in 4 weeks. They left our message on seen.

Son's wife was reeling me in a month ago about attending my nephew's engagement and that we would have a good time and some bevvies together. I asked her on the evening if we will be seeing her and my son that evening, she left the message on unseen. Never go a reply there. I fall for it every time. I should know after 10 years, that she rarely means it. Its just talk.

It hurts when they do make contact, because they just want something, it feels terrible.

I want to know what I can do to feel different about this.. I can't make them be or do anything. She runs hot and cold and i cant take chances of saying how they make us feel, there are grandchildren I see on occasion.

It hurts knowing we dont mean much there.